Being a Christian Doesn't Mean Being Perfect

If you’ve been following the blog, you’ll notice I’ve been missing these last few months. I’ve been told many times ministry starts within your family first before you can ever minister outside. Often times it’s our family or closest friends that hurts us the most. Why am I mentioning this? I’ve been asking myself how can I minister to others when I can’t even minister to my own family? What I come to realize is my family doesn’t want to forget my old man. They know I’ve been studying the Word and spending time with the Lord. Whenever a situation arises, they are the first to accuse me, “I thought you knew God.” Family, does this happen to you? Being a Christian doesn’t mean being perfect. Being a Christian means, you need Jesus. I’ll be the first to admit I’m a flawed person and that’s why I need Jesus.

I’ve learned to walk away when emotions are high. Is it easy? No, because my flesh really wants to let them have it. Do I win all the time? No. Am I getting better at winning? Yes, I thank God for it.

So I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.

Galatians 5:16, NIV

Family, I’ve been quiet during this time. I’ve completely shut down the noise. I’ve closed my ear gates and have chosen silence. This is what I received. Communication is so vital in having good relationships. Communication is an important skillset to have and acquire. It requires participation and willingness to clearly engage in dialogue. I’ve learned in my own family, it’s like pulling teeth to get to the root of the core issue and continually asking multiple-round-about questions to finally get to the meat of the bone. It is exhausting and I’m tired.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

Matthew 11:28, NIV

In my shut down, I neglected some of the promises I made to God and allowed my accusers to question my purpose. Like I stated earlier communication is vital in having good relationships and the best communication you can have is the one with God. Stay connected with HIM especially when you feel tired, exhausted, overwhelmed, unloved, and weary. I can’t change the way my family sees me but I can choose to believe HIM and who HE says I am.

I am not a loser. I am a WINNER.

But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

1 Corinthians 15:57, NIV

I am not a mistake. I am FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY made.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139: 14, NIV

I am not weak. I am STRONG.

I can do all this through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13, NIV

I am MORE THAN ENOUGH.

Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. 2 Corinthians 3:5, NIV

I am UNDERSTOOD.

You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. Psalm 139:1, NIV

I am LOVED.

We love because he first loved us. 1 John 4:19, NIV

Seek the Lord and also trusted counsel during these times. God never intended for us to be isolated. I write this not only to encourage you but to also encourage myself. You are LOVED by the MOST HIGH. In my deepest hour of pain that is what I hold on to, HIS LOVE.

Hua Her